October 9, 2009

LeMoN/LeMoNaDe/LeMoN TeQuiLa

To quote from Hitz FM - "If life gives you a lemon, make a lemonade"

Im just wondering, what if I never favour lemon, lemonade or worse, even lemon tequila?? (I just mentioned IF coz I still heart tequila for the mean time)

If you never favour lemon, it does not make a difference no matter how it transforms, isn't it??

Hence, If life gives you a lemon, mail it to God and ask for apple. 

October 7, 2009

Ain't acting - Just enjoying d SHOW!!~

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

September 26, 2009

Vio + Work = Bitch??

Never explain yourself. Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it. -- Belgicia Howell

I guess I have much more enemy than I ever thought..especially when I have to constantly explain and apologise for things that I've never done, deal with conflict that im not actually aware of and nevertheless involve myself in misunderstanding that leaves me with no room to defence.

As rumours spread - Vivio, u r a bitch!!~

" The flying rumours gather'd as the roll'd, Scarce any tale was sooner heard than told; And all who told it added something new. And all who heard it made enlargements too - Alexander Pope"

July 12, 2009

Bungy Jumping @ Phuket

Bungy Jump - the game which meant for the brave one. Vivio who had always been loving excitement had said YES to it together with Chloe Bb & Chris (= We heard that there's 2 bungy jump in Phuket which one is cheaper than d other. Somehow, we do not wish that the newspapers published a headline titled "Saving of few penny causes death of law students in Malaysia" which sounds pathetic. Hence we paid 2000Baht (RM200) for the Bungy Jump managed by the New Zealand company. The fees included insurance, a cool T-shirt/Singlet and a certificate of courage which I wonder if it contributes to our working resume in future.

The video which consists of the full process of jumping has been uploaded in facebook and I shall upload here with the pictures took while jumping. The feeling is awesome when you dive down from the sky (though technically Im not really diving but jumping) An advice for the first timers - Do not look down and see how high you are standing Coz that doesn't help but to freak you out more. There goes your courage when you stare and admire the scenery under your leg at the platform there.

June 11, 2009

Redundancy

I made a trip to Palace of Justice(POJ) in Putrajaya for some management case. POJ had somehow changes its name "Istana Kehakiman". Wait..I thought the direct translation of POJ in Bahasa Malaysia (BM) suppose to be "Istana Keadilan"?? While im doubting my own command of BM, I suddenly enlightened with the word of "Keadilan". I nearly forgotten that our ruling government is allergic towards the word of "Keadilan" Think you are smart enough to understand what it suppose to mean.

Pardon me if I was being shallow in writing this entry but I seriously do not see any reason of the necessity of having whole rows of air conditioning and fans in a medium size cafeteria in this majestic POJ. (Do explain or correct me if you know the reason)


As from the picture, you can notice that the fan is not those ordinary fan that you place at your home. Around the area of fan, you can see double black frame, which is actually the air conditioning system. If this is not cooling enough, try to look at this:-Seems that our government has been extremely caring and understanding about the hot weather in Malaysia and this is for the good of our community. (anyhow, I din even see much homo sapiens there)

Having a luxurious palace as a court is just an indication telling people that justice requires lots of money.

June 10, 2009

天蝎座

天蝎座是一个强烈的星座。他们的爱与恨,他们的人生观点,他们的生活方式,都充满了强烈二字,他们强烈的爱憎,强烈的需求,强烈的追求&索取,而这些强烈的成分,也使天蝎座变得倔强而坚强.

天蝎座的外表往往看起来很老实,他们看起来安分守己,中规中矩,并不会第一眼就给人留下深刻印象。但是如果以为他们真的如此一般,那就是大错特错。天蝎们内心总是暗潮汹涌,他们对人生有着强烈的眷恋&希冀,他们渴望权利,渴望金钱,更渴望爱情。他们常常不动声色,让人误以为他们沉默乏味。但是那其实只是他们在审时度势的不断观察。

他们的目标其实一贯都很明确,但他们是小心谨慎的,他们从不轻易暴露自己心中的想法。他们有着长期观察和考验的过程。不论是他们谋求一个职位还是得到一个人。一旦他们感到有把握,他们就会立刻出击,动作迅速,毫不犹豫,而且往往一击致胜。

天蝎们的暗潮汹涌,令他们非常具有爆发力,而他们的爆发力之后又有着强烈持久的激情。这或许也可以作为天蝎何以总是排在排名前五的状况。他们诞生的时间,恰是步入中年时期的开端,个人开始卯足全力,以期能在未来达到巅峰。所以,天蝎们具备了许多分裂不融合的特质,而也使他们拥有比其他星座更多的持久能力。他们富有激情,而且是长期持久的激情。这在其他星座那里是鲜见的。他们如果认定了的人或事,是很难发生喜新厌旧的状态。所以他们最善于婚外情。因为他们太强烈,需要太多,而他们又如此稳定,所以可以保持更多。

表里不一的报复心态> >> >天蝎们表面看来并没有那么强烈的特质,他们往往显得文静柔弱。但是他们内心坚如磐石,他们有着强烈的自我守护及占有欲望。但是天蝎们并不是真的那么心狠手辣。他们确实会坚定不移的报复那些曾经伤害他们的人,但是更多时候,天蝎们只是在心里想想而已。他们绝对不宽容,但是他们也并不是真的有他们自己想象中的心狠手辣,即便是成功报复后,他们也往往会自己承受一段时间的痛苦煎熬,这令天蝎们反复焦灼,也更体现了天蝎座矛盾的性格。

虽然矛盾是人生的一大特征,但是没有比天蝎座更能体现这个词汇含义的星座了。这个星座的人天生就在强烈的矛盾感中度过。这源于他们出生的时间就是开始尝试交融各种互相对立的矛盾事物的阶段。他们的表现有时候非常奇怪,让人觉得他们神秘莫测,他们对人的方式有时候非常晦涩,让人揣摩不到他们的真实意图,你以为他们所作所为是因为想要得到A,而真实答案是,他们要的可能不是A也不是B&C,而是D!

所以要尝试了解天蝎座人,确实需要经过漫长的磨合过程,要适应他们突然狂躁突然沉默的性格特征。在天蝎们要真正接纳一个人的时候,他们的状态是反复无常的,但是经过了这段时间的斗志斗勇后,天蝎们就会将你真正接受,而且基本能做到不离不弃。

天蝎座们许多人穷其一生都会感到焦灼&痛苦,因为他们的欲望太强烈&执着,而他们的性格又异常的倔强和坚强。他们需要的不仅仅是成功。其实他们常常是成功的,但是因为他们永远奋进的执着理想,和他们对美好事物的强烈占有欲望,使他们一生都在不端追寻而无法停下脚步,享受安逸的生活现状。天蝎们可以考量常常同双鱼们相处。从他们那里能学习到悲天悯人的纯真情怀,也能逐步放下紧张焦灼的状态。

June 4, 2009

BosSini

The previous weeks, I was showered with bundles of works and given dateline for most of the tasks. This happened till last friday when I had done all that I should have done plus few that I shouldn't be doing, Im feeling so bored in the office!!~ Whenever my boss entered the office I'll ask, "Sir, you have anything for me to do?" The answer seems to be negative always.

Boredom keeps striking thus I just unintentionally repeating the same question over and over again. My boss ended up give me a reply of "Hmm..you make me feel that my business is so bad till I can't provide you with any job." -.-!! Since then, I never see him in office more than 30minutes. Haha^^ Annoying Vivio.

I realized that my boss had actually employed another boss - Vivio, into his office. My major activities now seems to be sitting in office starring at four walls, sleeping, disturbing other clerks and lately watching movie. Once a while when my boss came in the office, he'll just throw me a task that I manage to finish within 30minute and im allowed to continue with my major activities.

In the meantime, my boss was away due to official matters in Land Office, Court, JPN, LHDN and etc. He is the boss but he is the one who running around for his business; Im his staff (cause he is paying me) but I just relax in the office. That makes me think, who's actually the B-O-S-S??

June 2, 2009

Work vs Study

This is Vivio's third week of attachment. She was once complaining how bad is the life as a student but now she missed the peaceful life so much. Have to say that she cant wait for this month to end ASAP.Hehe^^

What Vivio hates most is waking up in the early morning. Then, have to put on an "its-a-brand-new-day" face while she is actually born with a yawning face and a pair of barely open eyes. This lasted till 5pm. She misses the day when she can have more sleep and attend class if only she happens to wake up on time, misses the time when you can have half day study and half day loitering and have fun with friends.

The grass always seems to be greener on the other side. When you study, you wish to work; when you work, you wish to study. When you have bundles of works and less rest, you wish to have more rest and less work; when you have less work but plenty time to rest, you wish that you are provided with more work -.-

That's how ironic life can be. The answer to this being - Moderation as the key to success. So, Vivio, treasure your this few weeks of working so that you wont complaint about quitting study and work when you are suppose to study, deal??

"Moderation is the silken string running through the pearl chain of all virtues - Joseph Hall"

May 20, 2009

Marriage )= Or (=

Today is the third day Vivio has her internship in law firm. Has been dealing with numerous litigation case especially regarding matrimonial matters. Human, they are just weird - deeply falling in love, excitingly getting married, merrily gifted with kids, happily living for few years, miserably gone through quarrels then pathetically petition for divorce and custody of the kids and lastly, greedily asking for maintenance.

I was being assigned a divorce case where our client, a 60years old man wanted to file petition for divorce with his 49years old wife. I seriously do not understand the reason of divorcing at that age. Usually, husband and wife at this age, no matter how bad they quarreled, how much they hate each other,they'll somehow still live together for the rest of their life. The first thought that came across my mind on this case is :-Does this oldman plans to remarry?? Or he just do not want the wife to get any of his property when he is dead?? Haha^^

Another task of mine is on fighting the rights of custody. My master told me most man out of the reason of ego would want at least the care and control of the kids due to the main reason of fearing the change of surname on their children when the wife remarry. How pathetic is this. I do curious is it that important to keep your surname on your children when you do not even bother much about his/her upbringing anymore. *sigh*

I thought marriage is a decision that you had vowed for life but it seems to me that I'm living in Utopia if to say that nowadays. What I don't understand is if you do not plan to be with that person for life, why you get married at the first instance?? Perhaps some people just love to provide business opportunity for the lawyers.

Maybe, people just get married because:-
Or :-

Or :-

P/S : This picture is the biggest as it signifies the most frequent reason tat contributes to marriage!!~ Haha^^

Parents used to have lots of children; now children have lots of parents - Guro Hansen Helskog

April 27, 2009

He's Just Not That Into You

Watched a movie tiltled "He's Just Not That Into You" and Im so loving it. ^^ It has a real funny, meaningful and touching storyline. The movie examined the doubts and conflicts that usually arise in love and relationship, giving examples of what's the rule and what's the exception. This is different from those happily ever after love story that we used to watch and I'll give a rate 5/5 for the movie. Here are some very classic lines from the movie:-

(1) We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.

(2) I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are.

(3) If a guy treats you like he doesn't give a sh*t, it's because he doesn't give a shit.

(4) If a guy doesn't call you, he doesn't want to call you.

(5) Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

From the quotes above, try check the love signs you are getting and see whether those are rules or exceptions. I laughed and I cried. Perhpas, you should consider bringing your special one for the movie and discuss about it as well!!~

April 16, 2009

VioLIn Siem Reap @ Angkor Wat

The second day, we headed to Angkor Wat. The entrance is rather pricey which costs us USD$20 per head per day for tourists. The visiting hour for day of purchase is from 5.30am to 5.30pm. However, we bought the entry pass on 12/4 around 5.30pm hence we are allowed to go in on 12/4 to watch the sunset while the entry pass is dated 13/4. The Angkor Wat is the must-visit spot in Cambodia. You'll be amazed by the architectural work done by those ancient people. We have machines and tools to help us in construction nowadays but people who built Angkor Wat have nothing but their bare hands to construct EVERYTHING. Vivio truly salutes them and applause for their greatness.

For those people who loves photo shooting, Angkor Wat would be a heaven for you BUT it does requires you to do lots of climbing and walking around in order to get the nice shot. Im not professional in photo shooting but im very well in climbing and jumping around so these are SOME of the pictures I took (If you want more, ask from me personally):-


The crafting on Angkor Wat is really awesome. Vivio is so bad in art and seriously wonder how those ancient people manage to come out with such fine and artistic pieces.
However, parts of Angkor Wat has been destoyed by the weather, roots and human being. Few places are close for admission because the building is collapsing due to the rain and no longer safe for entrance. The trees are growing old and the roots had slowly breaks into the structure of the building and causes more damages on the buildings. Besides, some parts of the statute (especially head) has been stolen by people hence we'll see lots headless statute here.

Started to miss Cambodia when I looked back on those pictures. Somehow, I do not wish to stay there coz I LOVE MALAYSIA more.^^ Perhaps should pay another visit during the raining season but not during their new year. Stay tuned for the next tourist spot im heading to on mid of May --> Redang~

VioLIn Siem Reap @ Tonle Sap Lake

Vivio was on vacation to Cambodia during her study week. YES!!~People busy studying, She went on vacation. *envy grins* She was keep texting her friends complaining almost everything once she get down from the plane. Well, it isn't really tat bad after all. If you have less expectation and bear in mind that you are visiting an undeveloped country, it is actually a nice tourist spot.

The thing that she complained most is on the weather. The sunlight is more likely piercing through every inch of your skin harshly, leaving its victorious marks telling you "Hey people, I've conquered you and you are now well-roasted". Undoubtedly, Malaysia is very hot too BUT at least we are gifted with chilled breezes. She has been there 4 few days somehow she is still yet to see a slight movement on the branches nor the leaves even though she is surrounded by all the trees. *sigh* The best description on the weather there will be - placing yourself in an oven marinated with dust.

The first day of my trip is the visit to the well-known Tonle Sap Lake that we used to study about in Geography during our schooling time.Due to the reason that the place is rather undeveloped. Vivio had summarised Tonle Sap Lake in 3colours namely Blue, Brown and Green. Here are the proofs:-People who stays on the Lake conduct all their daily routines on the lake i.e. women from buying groceries to cooking to washing, children from playing to schooling to earning, men from praying to working to resting. Schools, hospitals, restaurants and churches are all built on the the lake. To my surprise, they can even rear pig on the lake. The poo and pee there, but at the same time, the lake is their water resource too.

Playing Basketball


Children playing on the Lake


School

Along the way till the center of the Lake, you can see mother bringing their children aged 2-6years old begging for money or selling soft drinks and souvenirs to you. It is rather pathetic to see these and makes Vivio feel rather lucky that she at least do not have to beg for money and work when she was in that age.

At the end of the trip to Tonle Sap Lake, Vivio was keep thinking that sometimes when we are complaining how God has been cruel to us, comparing ourselves to those who are luckier than us, perhaps we should take a look at what we have and feel content about it comparing to those who are not so lucky. In conclusion, Vivio, you are so damn lucky so STOP complaining anymore!!~

March 31, 2009

Why so serious??

Was just wondering...

Do I actually need a ground for naming people as "bitch", "jerk" or maybe "scum"???

If I happen to personally not favouring someone due to the things he/she did and I tell my friends about it, am I consider as defaming that particular person??

What if I prefer not telling things out verbally but place the incident in writings on my blog to express my thought on that particular person in the mentioned incident??

When I write, I reserved in mentioning that particular person's name but on the other hand stated some details of that person to describe him/her...And..That makes me wonder : Aren't the readers are the one who is actually accusing people since I'm just writing what is in my mind and smart readers can have their judgment after reading, right?? To what extent you believe in what I write, to what extent that you know I'm bullshitting..
Aren't you still not adult enough to judge??

Don't take things that seriously when it comes to blog entries..Its after all a personal and casual writing anyway..If you prefer to be serious, perhaps you should consider searching for journals and articles and place yourself into the whole bundle of them till you choked yourself than to do blog hopping and read what happens in people's life.

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on." --Robert Frost

March 17, 2009

Yankies Hut ~ U sucks!!~

It was Andrew's birthday and hence we decided to dine together There's thsi place named Yankies Hut located in Kajang which had quite a good reviews from my friends hence we are so excited to try out on this new dining spot that we found.

It was a great disappoinment I should say. I feel that I seriously can cook much better and bakar better fish that they did. At least, I still know where to get fresher fish to serve people. I never been to a dining place which can be worse than what I just went.

First of all, as I mentioned earlier, the fish sucks!! We ordered 1 Ikan Kerapu and 1 Ikan Pari. The Ikan Keparu still consider as edible since it was being deep fried but the Ikan Pari which was being bakar taste horribly. The fish itself already stinks like rotten fish and the texture (I lost words in describing). What I say is just worse than terrible.

Besides the fishes, we ordered kangkung belacan but seems like the kitchen had most probably ran out of belacan or chillies. Its tasteless. Fried Sotong tasteless but luckily they provided us with some ketchup and causes the fried sotong still at least taste like Ketchup. The drinks, I guess they have no stock on nescafe either cause I ordered a big jug of nescafe and I ended up have to put in the Baskin Robbin's Espresso and Creme ice cream to flavour my nescafe. The only food which tastes normal would be the white rice. So if you just wish to have white rice as meal, do op for Yankies Hut.

Left the part of food served aside, the environment was designed to be like a village style BUT Im not sure if Its due to I were born and brought up in a city, I never really tried having a whole family of cats (which made up of 5/6 of them) sitting and starring at me hungrily while im eating the fish as if they'll be jumping up and grab whatever Im having. This really freaks me badly.

On the service part, its again sucks. The waiters are all day-dreaming and working like wandering ghost. The entire restaurant was empty when we were there yet it takes them forever to serve and approach us. The waiter can even holds his phone while taking order and the phone was keep on ringing. -.-!!

People, try guess how much I've spent for such terrible meal?? It costs us RM78.40 for this terrible meal. RM 20 for the rotten Ikan Pari, RM30 for the not fresh but luckily deep fried Ikan Kerapu. We seriously feel like being robbed in a pirate ship, not by Johnny Depp (at least he's good looking) but by the scary Davy Jones. HUH!!~

And before Im ending the entry, 2 of my friends is having diarrhea NOW!!~ So people, if you feel like cleansing your stomach after a long period of constipation, throw all your medicine away and kindly visit Yankies Hut @ Kajang NOW.

March 7, 2009

Just 4 laugh XP

Vivio received a number of complaints that the entries written here are too full with words and bizarre phrases hence I shall keep things simple where there are times that I'll just use picture to illustrate things. Agree??

Today's entry is simple, U just have to refer back to my previous entry on VioLIn KK ~ Wildlife Park and here I would laid down the contradiction - 8 reasons on why you shouldnt go to zoo (Especially you are bringing kids with you!!)









I seriously wonder what should I answer if my 3yrs old kid suddenly popped out with :" Mom, what are these animals doing??" *speechless*

February 12, 2009

Karma - What Goes Around Comes Around

How many people actually believed in Karma?? Vivio is a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good. Illogically, You might think that she just being superstitious; logically, you'll realize that it is in fact only a law of cause and effect. Karma is the effects of all deeds actively created by our past, future, and present experiences. Thus, we are responsible for our own life, including the pain and joy it brings to ourself and others.

Contrary to popular misconception, karma has nothing to do with punishment and reward. It exists as part of our holographic universe's binary or dualistic operating system only to teach us responsibility for our creations and all things we experience are our creations.

I had planted few bad seeds recently, was wondering all these happened because those parties involved owed me in the past life and thus they are returning everything to me now by these incidents OR I had done a new bad cause and hence I'll have to return everything to them in my next life?? I heard a quote of "Born because of the karma of their past mistakes, they make more mistakes, and fall into mistakes", does this means that human'll just over and over again suffered from this visual cycle of cause and effect??

There's never a definite answer for the question. Somehow, we just try every possible way to be good to people around; love and kindness are never wasted, they bless the one who receives them and the giver. While for the bad deeds that I ever planted, I understand that nothing can exist without a cause hence I'll pay for what I do and what I become someday. With blessings to myself that I'll free from all resentful thoughts and kindly forgive me for whatever I've done wrong.

"Karma moves in two directions. If we act virtuously, the seed we plant will result in happiness. If we act non virtuously, suffering results" - Sakyong Mipham

February 3, 2009

Kids - They merried the CNY (=

Its been long since Vivio last updated her blog. Wasn't in a right mood so better off not writting than keeping tonnes of entries that truly depressing.

Time flies...All I remember what I did throughout the new year (perhaps every new year) is getting Angpow, eat, eat, eat and eat nevertheless drink drink drink and drink. This has been the same since years. I spent most of the time with family and not much on friends. Frankly, Its rather bored BUT this year, Im loving to be with the family. Reason being, I have 3 new members in the family. >.<

My family was dominant by young boys and middle-aged ladies. Whenever we have reunion dinner, you can imagine my whole gang of aunties chit chatting and gossiping non-stop while another whole table of boys'll be talking about football or their working/study stuff..While for gals, 3 of us just sit there and drink.

With the existence of my nephews and niece, I seriously feel that they added so much livelihood and laughter to the reunion dinner. It signifies hope and a dream of possibilities for the family. Im not sure its because me myself loving kids or they seriously did, I just enjoyed the dinner so much. Never coz the food, partly coz the drink, and mainly coz the people.

I was seriously wondering how my child'll look like after I saw them. While I was daydreaming about all these things, reality somehow hits me with the fact that Im still far beyond what I has been always wishing for. Perhaps, I wont be able to be a mom; if I happen to be one, I guess Im no longer a good mom.

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for - Author unknown

January 13, 2009

Ex lovers - friends or strangers??

I remembered a friend of mine told me that a couple wouldn't be friends after they broke up, if they happened to be, its either one party has been constantly giving in due to love or both of them had never really love each other. I USED to totally disagree with the above opinion as I was rather fine with my ex-es.

Somehow, my good record was being broken by someone that had seriously pissed me off. The first ever ex of mine that turns out to be a stranger after we broke up. I was thinking that we really can be friends but all these was just an utopia when I realized a series of lies from him and stupid silly Vivio was actually just being taken for granted. This is when an ex lover becomes stranger because you know it well that its over and treating him as your friend'll just hurt you more at the end.

For ex-es who remain as friends, its not that I never really love. I swear to god that at the time Im with them, I vowed to be with them for life. Perhaps I had acted as the party who love and constantly giving in for them, after all, I don't stop loving them, I just simply learn to live without them and hoping that they have a better life ahead even their happiness have no part of me. When storms happened, when they are lost, Im still always and forever there for them. Pathetic Vivio, but who is the one who'll wipe away your tears and be there for you when you are miserable??

Sometimes I do wonder that when they look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break their heart too?? or crack a little bit?? or nothing?? *sigh*

Done with all these craps. Just hope that life'll be better ahead for Vivio, for people who loves Vivio and nevertheless for the people whom Vivio loves. *muacks*

"If we never felt sorrow, we'd never recognize bliss. At this rate I should be in a full state of bliss for the rest of my days" - Dennis Quaid

January 2, 2009

Farewell 2008, Welcome 2009

I never really have any new year resolution, plan and worse not even a wish for every year. Somehow I do look back on 31st of Dec to see what I've done for every particular year.

2008 seems to be a year that I progressed a lot, perhaps a year that I had learned too much compared to those previous one. Started to have a new concept on life, relation, marriage, friendship, family and lots more. Vivio had no longer taking life as serious as she used to be, no longer placing herself in a distress condition to please the whole world but not herself and no longer bother about what people had been gossiping about her.

She finally finds it acceptable to have a relation that remains people to be single at the same time, friends who acted as couple at times, marriage that doesnt everlasting anymore and acknowledge the importance of having family members.

Grown up, having a different perspective now somehow makes her more likely to lost herself again and to be exact, she actually did. She just answered a friend of hers that she has no freaking idea at all what she wanted in life. She has been keep telling herself about ignorance but at the end, I just feel like she is running away from everything rather than the literally ignoring. Anyhow, farewell 2008, thanks alot that I've learned and slightly wiser now.

There are times that she just feel like breaking down and cry, just keep crying BUT she knew it so well that tears doesn't help, life wouldn't be better no matter how loud she cried, misery wouldn't disappear, fact remains unchanged.

2009, is just another year, nothing to be really cheer on. She just hopes that this year'll be better. Pray hard to the God not to force her learn so fast by experiencing a series of tragedies again, pray hard that she'll be given a better route to walk in 2009. Welcome 2009!!!~ Better days ahead.